day 1

 today i started taking ritalin bcuz i might have adhd n until i can get assessed by an available psychiatrist (which i got a call tht i have one available im waiting for them to call me) i am just taking low doses n seeing what happens n so far i dont feel any different but i did notice tht my brain was quieter than it was before i didnt have my typical scattered thinking n thts good i guess n i didnt dread washing a bowl when i wanted to have my noodle salad n i didnt feel overwhelmed by thinking abt doing something n i did pick up my drivers study book but i got thru one page maybe bc i was trying to watch anne with an e at the same time so thts probably y it didnt work but i can try again now or tomorrow i feel like i could do both like doing it now seems like more of an option than it did before when it came to deciding when to do something like i think its working ??? n i hope it is obvi like i wanna function i wanna have a life thts more than wat i got right now